So,it is 5am...

Dear blogger,it appears as though it is almost 5am and I still haven't went to bed.I dislike being restless when there is no one to talk to.I mean,I could just lay in bed all night staring at the ceiling,but I would much rather be up moving around if I can't sleep.Usually I go for a walk on nights when I cannot sleep,but tonight I don't feel like going through all the trouble of sneaking out and everything.I don't really feel like having any human contact right now,unless it was him.Yes,the him that doesn't exist yet.He will someday,I know he will.And indeed he will be lovely and we would be talking on the phone at this restless moment of mine.I rather love the feeling of waking up on a summer day after a rainy night and you go outside and it's warm and dewy.It's such a lovely feeling to be out there in that.I can hardly wait for summer,so many adventures await me.But as for now,I'm just trying to get through these ridiculous mixed weather days.It's supposed to be spring and flowers are supposed to be blooming.I don't see any bloody flowers,and I am still wearing hoodies.Oh the frustration.And for that matter,I am freezing right here,sitting in my room.I could plug my heater in,but by the time I decide to do that,it'll take too long to heat up and I'll just get in bed or go downstairs to somewhere warmer.I could actually be waking up now to start the day,but I find 5am way early to start a day.I just can't find enough to do at that time.I have a feeling today is going to be a nice day,considering how boring yesterday was.I hate getting stuck at home.And I managed to consume 3 pieces of pizza and a whole bag of buckeyes.I hardly ever eat,and now I'm not feeling well.How sad.I'm also lonely,but isn't everyone?I suppose I will survive.Today is a new day and I can find a way to make it mean something more then yesterday.


-Skylie